14th year house bound

[hiddenite]

Hey Jacques I know you like multi tasking.

It sounds like you've had another busy day.

I'm completely freaking out at the moment, I have a male nurse who comes into my room every 30 minutes to check on me. Just my luck to get a male. 

If your in your sleeping bag you had better move over and make room for me.

[Jacques]

OMG My angel, hi, i really missed you today.

Yes another busy day, it is raining here at the moment, their is thunder, ,lightening and everything, it is so beautiful, i stood out in the rain this afternoon, and let it fall on my face, it felt good.

Oh no Karen, i hope he is nice to you, i know how you struggle with men, just keep telling yourself not all men are bad, or think of me waking in the room to check on you, see if that helps.  the only problem if i was their is you would get a cuddle every 30 min

Oh how did you know, my favourite green sleeping bag, and plety of space

[hiddenite]

Awesome j I would love to watch the thunderstorm with you.

Boy I could really use one of those hugs.

Still shaking so badly it's never been like this. 

At least I don't have to worry about my safety they make sure of that here.

I hope you are alright and the phone has stopped ringing.

Hope there's plenty of room and don't forget not to squash me 

[Jacques]

Oh yes, it is so nice, i have not seen so much rain, it has been like this all through october and november, boy the seasons are changing.

I do wish i could be their to give you a hug, you are shaking because your body is in trauma, it is your body's way of coping with the hospital, i get the same, i had the same a few days ago, the shaking was so bad, mum got frightened that i was having another breakdown.

I am so glad you are safe Karen, i would be so devistated if i lost you, i would not know how to cope without you any more.

Oh Karen their is plenty of room, just look out for my big feet

[hiddenite]

Oh I forgot to mention you get to Que up here for your medication it took 45 minutes and there are some really scary men here.

Maybe the sleep medication might actually work

[hiddenite]

It is really scary sitting shaking just staring at nothing not being able to talk. The staff are really worried and brought the Dr in.Hopefully the meds will help it never been this bad. My muscles are aching 

Don't worry about your feet j mine wouldn't even reach that far down:-)

[Jacques]

Oh Karen that is terrible, having to wait that long, wow, i bet you are really scared, but remember those men are in their for the same reason as you, to get help.

I am glad the nursing staff are their to make sure you are ok and call a doctor when needed. if they are that concerned it seems like you really did need to be their, if only for a break.

i do hope the sleep meds, are going to work for you, please Karen, if you need to talk to someone please don't hesitate to talk to me.

I am so proud of you my angel, it takes a lot of courage and determination to go through with what you have, your achievements asound me you are amazing

[hiddenite]

I have to go to mindful classes tomorrow, and other information sessions. It sounds really full on.30 people in one room. I'm already completely freaking out. I have no idea how I'm going to walk in the room let alone speak to strangers.

I hope you have apeaceful day tomorrow you are in my thoughts Jacques.

Big hugs to you my friend.

Goodnight.

[hiddenite]

2I will try and talk when I can.

Sleep well my friend,sweat dreams 

[Jacques]

Karen please rmember i am going to be their holding your hand, take strength from me, you can do it, you are such a strong woman, if you need to look at the floor and imagine no one is their, that is what i do.

Wow you do have a lot going on tomorrow, i did not know they hold mindfullness and information sessions. Karen you do not have to speak if you don't feel comfortable, no one will force you, take your time, watch your breathing, and if you become too overwhelmed go to your room, their is no shame in that.

Karen you are in my thoughts too Karen, every minute of every day.  you are not alone.

Big hugs to you too, get some sleep i will be their holding your hand, if you get scared, i will be their to comfort you.  you will never be alone while i am in your thoughts, like you are in mine.

Goodnight my angel, i am counting the hours already till we speak again.

Jacques