14th year house bound

[MockingJay]

You r in a bad way aren't you. I know what it feels like to b misunderstood. Psychiatrists r only as good as their commitment n interest in their cases. I recommend you shop around. You really need to reassess your hohum approach if you want to b convincing about your contribution to helping thy self. You will lose people's interest quickly if your not showing any effort on your part. If things r as bad as you say then I suggest you admit yourself into a psych unit.

[Jacques]

i know karen, it must be so difficult, i wonder if it would be possible to talk to a nurse and tell them you are not coping? maybe some time out of the group things?

I can imgine things are moving to fast, i find that when i have to go out, i feel like everything is out of my control like a crash you know is comming but can't stop.

i know how it is Karen, your safe place, i feel the same about my safe place too, i feel so scared if i am away from it for too long.

[Jacques]

i can't do that @MockingJay because of my seperation anxiety, i have not been away from home since 1994

[hiddenite]

I don't know how to manage the extra pressure. Even my mum said I looked awful.

They are set in stone with no exceptions if I don't go to classes I get kicked out.

It's so stricken. I spent the whole night on the toilet the stress is just too much for my body.

Sorry complain j.

I spoke o my psychiatrist today about it and she said they are the rules and she has to follow them too.

Hope you are managing

Karen

[Jacques]

OMG that is aweful Karen, to put patients under so much unnessisary pressure, i get the toilet thing too when i am stressed or put under pressure, it is a physical response to the anxiety.

Wow things must not be good if your mother says you look not good.

it is a sham, the place sounds more like a prison than a treatment facility.  i know you would be trying as hard as you can to comply, all you can do is your best Karen, if that is no good enough well bugger them.

please don't be sorry, that is why i am here for you, to support and encourage you.

i am ok, still bad panic attacks of a night though. i am so exhausted of a day.

[hiddenite]

Your right Jacques they went like this time and the staff were more open and kind.

I had a major panic attack in one of the group's and I went to leave and in the hallway a nurse stood over the top of me she's 6ft tall telling me I signed a contract saying I would go to all classes.

Thanks for listening.

I'm sorry there's no improvement with your sleep

Speaking of sleep I've had my night meds and have to go to bed. Lights out.I appreciate 

Yoursupport Jacques

Big hugs

Karen

[MockingJay]

Do you have a phone. Do you know that if you ring the hospital n explain you r having a severe anxiety attack n explain your predicament you can ask for medical assistance or intervention. I know when I had suicidal thoughts I only had to tell someone in emergency I don't feel safe n someone from the psych unit would come n assess me n I'd b admitted for that night. In your case however intervention might have to b arranged from your home base to sedate you bfore your transported. But help can only happen with your approval n a phone call. Give this some thought bfore you dismiss this suggestion. Better still talk it over with a medical professional or revisit the psychiatrist for their input. Whatever you do do something. Anything is better than nothing because the way I see it you have nothing to lose n everything to gain.

[hiddenite]

Goodnight Jacques

[Jacques]

oh karen, i am so sorry, it sounds like you are so scared of them, they sund very intimidating, i am glad you stepped outside when you got your panic attack, you did the right thing, please just be kind to yourslef you are doing the best you can.

Karen i am always here to listen, anytime my angel.

good night my angel, i will be their holding your hand, you are not alone, i am always with you.

Jacques

[Jacques]

good night karen, speak to you tomorrow.