14th year house bound

[Jacques]

Good night my angel,

Please stay safe, you sound a little down tonight, i think you may be triggered.

i will be here for you my angel, you are not alone, sleep well

Jacques

[Jacques]

Hi Karen,

I know today is going to be tough for you, my thoughts are with you today.

Remember these steps.

1. keep busy
2. remember the good times instead of the bad ones
3. do something nice for yourself
4. remember today is just a date, just a memory
5. keep safe
6. remember you have friends who care

Jacques

[hiddenite]

Hi Jacques

Today is going to be tough. My thoughts and emotions aren't good.

I went to the supermarket and ran into the police officer that called the ambulance and ended up in the mhu.

Trigger

Then I got to the house and the bathroom window was wide open. I know I didn't open it because the winder is broken. That's the 2nd time it's happened.

I'm feeling really unnerved, scared and shaking.

This day is not going to end well. I have an awful feeling of doom.

Sorry j

Karen

[Jacques]

Ok Karen,

The morning has not gone well, the supermarket incident is unnerving but to be expected you both live in the same town. Just breath, take a moment take a deep breath and try to relax all you muscles I know you will be very tense.

The house, well sometimes when a house is vacant people think it is their right to go in. Make sure today you shut that Windows and nail it shut so no one can open it. It is probably kids mucking around or something like that.

Karen I know it is tough, too much going on today, maybe a day to go bush.

Remember the I pending doom is just your anxiety, it is most likely nothing will go wrong, I get this feeling a lot, like something bad is about to happen.

Just take a minute, slow everything down watch your breathing.

I am here for you anything. Just take it easy today

Jacques

[hiddenite]

thanks Jacques,

The problem is when I get that feeling of doom it normally is.

The police man brought everything back.......

I know it sounds stupid but I'm sure my husband is haunting me.

I know I'm so dumb for thinking this but stuff just happens.

Paranoid not good.

Can't go Bush too hot 37 today.

I tried sitting in the car yesterday it was 35 and I was sweating profusely after an hour I felt really unwell.

Nothings going to work today

[Jacques]

Hi Karen, I know I can't get rid of that in pending doom feel either, I know how bad it can be seeing people from your past, remember last weekend, it brought back so many unpleasant memories for me.

Yes Karen you are not stupid, I have the same thoughts, like I made it happen that I am poor, that every thing that has gone wrong is my fault, Karen it is the anxiety talking, nothing more. You husband is passed, he can't hurt you any more, the feelings and thoughts you are having are just that, thoughts.

Oh gosh yes I forgot about the heat. Ummm maybe go to a quiet Cafe and have a long lunch or go to the library and find a quiet corner.

Please try Karen, you are so strong, you can beat these thoughts. Maybe go to the library and write a letter to your husband asking him to leave you alone, I know it sounds silly but it might help get those thoughts out of your head and onto papaer

[hiddenite]

ok I've put a screw in the window.

The letter sounds like a good idea.

Jacques can you please tell how to get normal letters, in my panic and shaking I've changed the letters and don't know how to fix it.

Please stop laughing at me it's not funny j 🙂

[Jacques]

Good girl, if any windows are open from now on screw them shut. It might be an idea one day getting an alarm fitted, I have one on my home, no one comes near it.

Karen just find the post you want to change and click edit to the right if your name.

I hope you have a little smile on your face. 🙂

[Jacques]

Oh Karen their is a menu above where you write, it will have 1 saying I just tap on that and it will fix it I think their is U I Bust tap the I.

[hiddenite]

Wow Jacques your just too smart for me lol

Boy you should charge for helping me, you teach me so much.

The house does have an alarm system except I don't know how to use it. No instructions and the previous owners refused to show me.

I have just put security chains on the doors.

I will change the locks another day.

I've also got chains and padlocks to put on the gates.

Thanks for your help again.

And I know you are still smiling.