14th year house bound

[hiddenite]

Hi Jacques

I hope you are ok. I've missed talking to you but you have been in my thoughts.

Today must have been really difficult for you and I hope you are remembering to breathe and all the grounding techniques we've discussed.

Please take care and stay safe

Your friend Karen

[Jacques]

Hi Karen,

I am home, arrived about 40 min ago, the day did not go well, i am not in a good place tonight, i don't want to upset you, speak tomorrow, thank you

Jacques

[Jessielass]

I get what your going through.  I have been housebound for nearly 4 years. I live with my son.

[Jacques]

Hi @Jessielass,

Please, please try to break this habit now, it has been 4 years, but the longer you do it the harder it is to break, i have been housebound for 14 years, i can barly function now, it does get worse the longer you do it.

Please take care, you will be in my thoughts.

Jacques

[Jacques]

Hi Karen,

Sorry about last night, i was not in a good place at all.

Well the day started when i had to get some stuff from town for the house renos, it was so busy i started shaking when i had to get out of the car, but i had to because mum could not wallk because of her knees.

then we went to my aunts, place, i was so anxious before i even got their, i was dizzy and sick, i got their i was so anxious in such a panic, we got their at 12pm, i spent the whole afternoon staring at the table, i literally only spoke about a dozen words the whole time, in 5 hours their i had to spend 3.5 hours sitting on the pourch because i could literally not be in the same room, i had such bad chest pains comming home, i still feel like crap, i hate to say it Karen but things are getting worse for me, i don't know how to deal with people anymore.

Karen i don't know how you made nearly 1 week, i can bearly make 1 hour now.

I really missed your support yesterday, but i had no intrernet access until i got home, i was so thankful to see your messages when i got home, thank you so much my friend, i did not get home until 8pm so it was too late for you i think, i went to sleep as soon as i got home, it was the only way to cope with the day.

Thank you for all the support my friend.

Jacques

[hiddenite]

Hi Jacques

I guessed that the day hadn't gone well I felt so hopeless not being able to help you.

Today is another day the birds are singing and the sun is up. I really hope you have the day at home.

Jacques you had such a busy week you were already exhausted and your anxiety was bad. I think it was only natural that you were struggling.

I'm thinking of you today and please rest.

Karen.

[hiddenite]

Hi Jacques

Well I'm at the house today, working on taking the bathroom out.

I really do need to find some gloves, my hands are ripped to shreds even have cuts on my arms. I should know better.

I don't know if you had to change you clocks on Saturday night for daylight saving, but it sure has messed with the body clocks.

The girls decided that they wanted to get up at 4. They are going to be really tired tonight, with it being their first day back at school..

Hope you are ok j.

Stay safe, take care

Karen

[Jacques]

Hi My angel,

Yes being in rural NSW, the mobile coverage is crap at best, the whole day all i wanted to do is talk to you, you seem to be the only one i feel close to, you meant more to me than my own family, i have no emotional attachment ot my family at all, but i get really upset when you are struggling or hurt, you seem to be the only person i seem to be able to bond with.  I don't know how to thabnk you for speaking to me for so long and being my friend, i don't know how to cope without you.

Yes a quiet day today, i planted some more plants this morning, and atarted doing somw work on the laundry, i am finished for the day now, so exhausted, i got a haircut and so did mum.

Yes i think you are right, everything came to a head yesterday and i just fell to pieces, within the first 10 min of leaving the house i felt like the world was comming in on me, i felt so confused and helpless, i am still feeling dazed today.

Karen how did you manage a whole week at that place? how did you cope? i just can't do it anymore.  it is just too hard.

Thank you my guardian angel, i could feel your presents yesterday, my thoughts where of you, i was wishing the day to go faster so i could speak to you.  Thank you so much

Jacques

[Jacques]

Hey Karen,

I am so glad you are back into it, i had a thought, why not go to a hardware store of nursery and buy some gardening gloves, they are not great but they would offer some protection.

i know the feelings, renovations are hard on the old arms and hands. my hands are a mess too, it is just part and parcle of renos.

Oh yes the daylight savings, well yes i am so screwed up from it too, it is going to take me weeks to get used to it.

OMG 4am, the girls are going to be tired!!!!! i hope they are happy to be back at school, and i hope you are happy to Karen reno is a good way to take your mind off things.

Take care my friend, thinking of you always.

Jacques

[hiddenite]

Hey Jacques

I'm glad I give you some comfort. I get through because I have you fighting beside me. I know I'm not alone when you support me, I feel that there is someone who can understand me and what is happening.

I know phone reception is non existent at the house I have to bring my tablet and pocket WiFi with me so I can keep in touch.

The joys of being rural.

I don't know j why we are so close or have found one another of all the millions of people in Australia how did we find one another. I think some things are meant to be, but I am so grateful.

Hope you get some rest j listen to your body it's need a break.

Thinking of you and thanks for getting back to me. I was so worried yesterday I new it would be a disaster.

Take care

Karen