07-08-2015 01:32 PM
07-08-2015 01:32 PM
Hi @workthisout,
I can relate to your situation. Myself, with my partner for 25 years, and have 2 young kids. However there isn't the level of animosity in my wifes manic states. I suspect your wife might be Type 1 not Type 2 like mine. Type 2 seems to be a gentler wave of mania. With my wife it shows in controlled, focused almost obsessive behaviour. It makes her look like a superwoman to everyone because they looking on in awe. But they never see or deal with what lies on the other side of it.
The key for me was at the point my business collapsed, and my wife in one day went from we are working through all this together to "our relationship is on the rocks". She wanted to see a marriage counseller. I told her I would go but only if it was a registered psychologist (not a therapist only) because I needed someone to have an insight into her repeat bouts of depression.
Really it was getting her to see a psychologist by stealth. The psychologist admittedly was pretty poor I thought, but it did help facilitate communication. Until finally during one session I lost it and told my wife "I am not responsible for your mental health. I'm over it. You need to get yourself some consistent help".
She went and got help from a psychiatrist, and was after 6 months diagnosed with Type 2 Bi-Polar.
It was drawing that line in the sand for myself (admittedly driven out of anger and frustration), that got a result for me. I'm not sure whether that is helpfull to you or not.
The big thing I have realised is that I come first. I have to push others needs aside to ensure that I am in a strong state. That might be finding time for excercising or meditating, or meeting with mates.
I gave up trying to hide it from close friends and told them what was going on. This freed me from the burden of trying to make it all look good when the truth was it wasn't. When they found out that my wife was bi-polar their conversations shifted. All of a sudden I felt more support (I think most people freak when they hear it, unlike depression they don't explain it away as something that you can just get over).
Getting on the forum and finding out what others are going through I felt gave me greater perspective as well.
Stick with it. I feel your one priority is to get your wife the care she needs. I feel that most of the other stuff will sort itself out from there.
I wish you all strength. I know it is tough but like you I just refused to give up on what we had.
There is something on the other side.
Regards
14-10-2015 11:04 PM
14-10-2015 11:04 PM
Thank you for sharing your story. It is difficult being a carer to someone who has bi-polar and will not take medication. I understand where you are coming from as my partner of 15 years was the same. He didn't believe in medication so his moods were up and down. I had also Had similar experiences with my partner accusing me of saying or behaving in a certain way, but realised they were actually reflecting how they felt or what they had done to me. He would often say I had catastrophed a situation when in fact I didn't even know about the situation.
Unfortunately my partners son moved in with us, and started displaying bi polar behaviours, and then had a number of delusions that placed my grand daughter, who lives with me in danger. As my partner didn't believe in medication and I could see there would not be any improved in the behaviour, and my family were in danger I had to ask them to leave.
We have just started seeing each other again, but now he is very badly depressed. Although I have experienced his depressions before, I am finding it hard to help and support him as we live in different houses.
However, I am a lot happier having some distance between all of us, and thus for the first time in My Life I am able to think of me as a person.
not taking medication meant that my partner has mood swings, and I found this hard to deal,with.
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17-10-2015 07:12 PM
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19-10-2015 02:22 AM
19-10-2015 02:22 AM
Interesting discussion re: trying to get the right dosage of meds- it is an very individual thing, and can be complicated. However it can be medically dangerous to try adjusting dosages on your own- there can be other physical and mental factors to consider.
So I would strongly encourage consulting with prescribing doctors/psychs and having a really frank discussion about side effects, the length of time it can take to get some stability on meds etc.
And yes, @Annie2, it is great that @AlienBP2 has taken responsibility for his illness, and yes the side effects of meds can be hard to deal with- and adjusting dosages can be useful- but please do this with medical supervision 🙂
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Thank you for sharing your story. As I read it, I am reminded of my son in law. My daughter who is 38 with 2 children suffers from depression. My son in law said he thought she was bipolar. I did not believe him- for a long time. I thought her bipolar was more to do with the fact that she tried to do too much for her family, spouse and community. He was often sick or unable to help much with family life tho he would be able to help anyone else or engage in his own interests.
She asked him to leave 15 months ago now. He has done his best to support her and the children. Recently she attempted suicide and tho unsuccessful has vowed that she will research it better and next time will be successful. I live ever day worrying about her, the children and my son in law.
I have come to believe that she is bipolar. What you experience is quite similar to what he is going through. I am grateful to him that he does the best he can to look after the children who are still in her custody. I worry about the children especially the 14 year old as she can be very hard on them; She is very hard on me and her ex no matter what we do to try to help. Instead of seeing what we do for her, she sees what we have not done right.
You are doing an amazing job in some really difficult circumstances.
18-08-2017 04:43 PM
18-08-2017 04:43 PM
Hello @dideoh, how are you today , have been thinking of you , hope you are ok
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